The dobberman
Last night I dreamt about my boy, dobbie... Dobbie died last February, February was also the month he was born ten years earlier. Ten years to the month he died maybe even the day, not sure about that.
In my dream my dogs could talk, sadie (my lab) was trying to tell me that dobbie (my dobberman) was sick. She said there was something leaking from his tummy. I ran over to him. He was lying next to the door, I asked him where he was hurt, he said his stomach. I searched the area around the floor for liquid but there was nothing. I felt his stomach all over looking for wounds, but there still was nothing. I asked him what hurt and what it felt like, he said it felt like his stomach exploded inside. I prepared to take him to the vet. As we were about to leave I asked him if he felt he was ready to go. He said I'll try to get to the vet. I said no I mean do you feel your ready to go to heaven. He stopped for a second and said "no" in a kinda confused I would even ask that way. I said Dobbie you are very sick there is a possibility that they will say it's time.
I don't really remember what he said, I think he just kinda looked at me like he was not ready. And I woke up.
I don't think I am over the death of him yet. He was an angel who seemed to step into my life at the exact moment I needed him and walked out at the exact moment I began to feel OK again. I miss him so much, and I wish I would have taken him on more walks, he loved walks. But I was always to busy or tired.
2 Comments:
if you loved him so much why did you put that picture up that makes him look like such a goober!(:
Dobie knew and knows that you adored him. He knew what his job was and he did it well - he knew that you had things to do that didn't always include him - but he always knew that he was there for you and that you would always love him and need him. You worry about the things you didn't do - he didn't - he understood that you had jobs to do too and that it didn't mean you loved him any less - he knew that you both would always have a special connection...You were there for him at the end - it takes a special bond to let something go when you know it's the right time but you also know how deeply it will hurt you...Dobie thanks you for not letting him suffer for you - he will also watch and probably show up in your dreams whenever you need him to. Let him rest content now instead of having to worry about you worrying about him...He was a special angel....and he is sitting with Syd - watching us all...
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