Quitting time
It's officially time to Quit smoking... the rest of my attempts have been practice. I don't want Quinn to know his mom as a smoker. Today I snuck off and had a cigarette while Quinn was playing, if I see him look over in my direction I just hide the cigarette behind me... I looked away to stomp out my cigarette, this time he saw me do that and came running over and began to stomp out my already stomped out cigarette like a pro, with the little foot twist and all. There's my wake up call... I always said I would stop before he would understand what I was running off alone to do... he's figured me out! So as of 12am tonight after my four smokes in my pack are gone, I will be a non smoker. And it's about time too, I hate feeling so weak minded... I'm not a weak person... so why does this get me? I think stress is the reason some people can't quit successfully and others can, I worry a lot, which causes me to light up. Actually stress has been effecting many thing in my life lately, I'm not being myself and acting down right silly at times... over thinking and over analyizing shit that I have no control over anyway, so why bother? Sometimes the logical answer is not always the first that pops in my head... but I eventually get there :) Anyway If I can get a handle on myself and muster up some will power I know I can quit... I am woman here me roar, right? ... meeeeoooow, hmmmm, we'll have to work on that. Thank you Ray for supplying the lovely imagry as a reminder :) Anyway I just have to remind myself that I want to live, it's that simple.
Look in the right bar for my progress. >>>>>>
8 Comments:
Man but I had a killer time quitting too - it is hard - it is very hard - but it is sooooo worth it - financially, physically, mentally and emotionally. If you can't do it for yourself - do it for Quinn - Kids learn by example; not by word... be the right example - be a mother he can be proud of...
well you know Ill help you......It took me 5 TIMES if you remeber.....ultimatley it was the kids that made me do it!
Laura kept telling me over and over I was going to die.
Your strong enough alright that's for sure....and your moms right the money you save is unreal...you'll see!
Besides....I can't teach you karate if your smoking it simply dosen't work ;)
Just remember - You can't lose 20 lbs and quit smoking all at the same time - you have to allow yourself some leeway or you will fail at both.... Just a helpful hint - the kind mothers always seem to dispense... :~)
BTW - Just where is this bar?
If I can at least stay put at the weight I am, then start loosing again later, I'd be happy... I am pretty motivated on the weight loss thing though, so we'll see. As long as I don't replace each cigarette with a super-sized Meal at Mc Donalds, I should be OK :) famous last words.
Day one was OK until about eight o'clock last night. :( I wanted a smoke BAD!
the bar is the right navigation and links... it's the yellow section. I have a feeling you were being sarcastic though :)
I know you can quit. I have always had faith in you :) Reds
thank you red :)
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