Exploring Emotions

I am an emotional person, that is something I have accepted within myself. At first I thought it was a flaw within my character but lately I have learned that I prefer it... people that are steady, that always keep their composure, that seem to always have that calmness within them... well I wonder if they are missing out. I feel sadness at it's extreme but I also feel happiness at it's most extreme ... and I don't think I would want to change that, I am beginning to feel that its a blessing to be able to "feel".

Lately I have noticed that Quinn is picking up on this fact... the other day he heard me make a sound... I wasn't looking at him so he gently reached over and put his hand on my cheek and turned me to face him... at first I thought he was playing but when he turned my face to him so that he could look me in the eye....he searched my face... it took me a moment to realize he was looking for my emotion... we looked at each other for a few moments because I was confused as to what he was searching for... he looked at me with much older eyes then I had expected a two year old could have... he looked so concerned, so worried. When I realized he was looking for what emotion I was feeling, a tear, a smile, a grimace... I smiled at him... he paused for a moment and explored my smile... then he smiled back, satisfied with my emotion and turned back to what he was doing and acted like the two year old I know him to be.

Maybe I am an emotional mom, but I am so proud that Quinn is the type of child that can pick up on that and feel such concern. I will always try to hide any sadness I feel or fears I have but I know now that Quinn is an extremely perceptive child and maybe his concern is also a blessing with in his character.

It’s amazing what a small child can teach you when you most need it…