My little cat

kitty baby

I am not too sure what Quinn understands and doesn't. I assume sometimes that he doesn't get it then he proves me wrong... like does a two year old actually know that the big Cat in the Hat played by Mike Meyers is actually a cat... can he see our little tabby cat Molly, all six pounds of her and associate that with this Mike Meyers thing with a striped hat? Quinn will be in his first Halloween parade tomorrow so tonight we tried on our Cat in the Hat costume and strutted our stuff around the living room... I say strut because that is what he did... he loves his new costume! I stood him up in front of a mirror and let him take a gander at himself... first he said "cute baby" (yes he calls himself that, wonder where he got that from) then he took a closer look, up at his two foot hat, at his big red bow tie, then down too his black jumper and said "kitty". It's odd what I consider proud mamma moments. Then I felt bad for thinking he wouldn't get it... I mean he's not dumb... maybe it's not such a stretch for a two year old to see little Molly as a big fat black cat that's six feet tall and can talk... all though that brings up another question... does he understand that the little men in the TV are actually tall and big? Maybe that is why kids go to Disney and freak out when they see the six-foot tall mouse they use to know and love in the little box.

"Cute kitty baby" pics tomorrow.

milestone # 24

My boy can now drink from a cup! Only three quarters of it ends up on his shirt. I'm so proud!

Out of Hand

Quinn's tantrums are out of hand... it used to be that he'd have a tantrum if he didn't get his cookie or we had to come in from playing outside... now a full blown tantrum comes from simple things like putting a shirt on, taking shoes off, when his cereal bowl empties, a shut door, a commercial during his cartoons... I find myself jumping for the remote when a commercial comes on and when I pick him up from daycare I see sometimes that Tony has left him in his pajama shirt just to avoid the tantrum. The last few weeks have been spontaneous tantrums... he just looks at us and throws a fit. We can't even take him in public. We plan around shopping trips, dinners and outings in general because he is so bad. When did this happen? When did we begin to fear our son... Who's the damn boss here?

This behavior has got to change... So today I have reserved myself to letting him have one long tantrum all day... I will not cater to it, I will not pick him up, I will not jump at his call. So bring it on little man, I'm ready for ya!

My only confusion is do I ignore the tantrum or tell him "no" and to "stop"? There are different points of view on this subject...

Nicotine SUCKS!

My body is not happy right now, it misses nicotine. I can feel all the withdrawal symptoms happening - The migraines, the edginess, mood swings. I forgot my Nicotine patch one time this week and went the entire day without it, by afternoon I just about bit someones head off for something that made no sense and was not me at all. Early this week I started the second step of the nicoderm patch, they lower the amount of nicotine from 21 mg to 14 mg. I was amazed at how that effected me, suddenly my cravings became to intense to handle... I had a couple mishaps this week and that makes me even more angry. I'm wondering if I should stay on the 21 for a bit longer.

For a while I was flying high on the fact that I was so proud of myself... I've moved passed proud to pissed. It's all psychological I know, my body is craving something that it has depended on for fourteen years and I need to ignore it.

It angers me that cigarettes can have this effect on your body, they can grab a hold of you and change who you are.